I believe that what we want to write wants to be written. I believe that as I have an impulse to create, the something I want to create has an impulse to want to be born. My job, then, is to show up on the page and let that something move through me.
Have you ever had a marvelous writing day and wondered what would’ve happened if you hadn’t shown up on the page that day? So often I’ll have a great writing day followed by an atrocious day followed by an okay day following by a fabulous writing day and on and on. My writing days are never consistently bad (thank goodness!!!) but they’re not consistently marvelous either (bummer, dude).
On those awful days when I’m banging my head on the desk and wailing staring at a blank sheet of paper and sighing, I wonder why the heck I even try doing this. Then a magical writing day comes along, one filled with beaming rays of golden sunshine, whistling birds cleaning house and cooking dinner, and leprechauns filling my purse with gold! On those days, I remember why it’s important to show up on the page every day, especially after terrible writing days.
Being a real writer means being able to do the work on a bad day.
I think the hard writing days teach me the most about writing. Some of my better writing has appeared when writing is like trying to make a child choose salad over cupcakes. Of course, I never see the tasty morsels until the following day. Though I desperately want to shred or delete my writing after a bad day, I’m glad I don’t!
I’m convinced that marvelous writing days wouldn’t happen without those dreadful writing days. What if I didn’t continue writing through a bad day or what if I didn't write at all the day after? I’d miss out on a lot of interesting ideas and magical writing I didn’t know was in me.
If only we could give ourselves permission to write ‘badly,’ so many of us would write very well indeed.
What are your writing days like? Do you struggle to continue writing through the bad days? Are you grateful for those lousy writing days if it means you'll have lovely writing days, too?
Have a wonderful weekend, Zigzaggers! Wishing you an abundance of lovely writing days!!